Wednesday, March 31, 2004

When I said that yesterday was a horrible day, I was wrong... cause today was WORSE!! Way way WORSE!! Haven felt so bad for years already... the last time was during sec 3 end of year, when I thot I would get A1 for additional maths, but ended up getting an F9.... wad a shock!! So sad at that time... the teacher was quite shocked as well... cause I had been scoring consistantly for A maths... haiz... think was quite sad during sec 4 mid year exam as well... cause failed 5 subjects... and had 36 (yes its 36) for L1R5...

But today wasn't even close to that.... its WORSE!! I shld be like the lousiest in the whole cohort... having failed EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT!! Got to know my chemistry grades... fail... pretty unbelievable actually, cause I studied only 2 hrs last year and managed to score even higher than now... and this time round I definitely took more than 2 hrs... I took days!! Haiz... and heard from Mr Lim that my math was terribly attempted (Means I failed again)... Dun even need to ask for bio, cause never pass before... so dis time round I dun expect anything different... so... thats it... OFFF... must really buck up already... only a couple of months left... have to work really really hard now!!

Worst thing is... have been listening to "The Cruel Mother"* repeated for more than half an hour liao... a rough calculation would mean about 15 times... and its not really helping much in making me less unhappy... I think its making me feel worse... but I just dun have the mood to listen to smthin livelier.... even Riverdance can't help anymore...

*For those who dun noe wad cruel mother is, its about a tragic tale of children born out of wedlock and were killed by their mother to avoid bringing disgrace upon herself and her family.

Lyrics to The Cruel Mother

There was a lady lived in York - all the lee and loney
Fell in love with her father's clerk - down by the greenwood sidey-o

She loved him up, she loved him down - all the lee and loney
Loved him 'til he filled her arms - down by the greenwood sidey-o

She leant her back against an oak - all the lee and loney
First it bent and then it broke - down by the greenwood sidey-o

She leant her back against a thorn - all the lee and loney
There she had two fine babes born - down by the greenwood sidey-o

She took out her reaping knife - all the lee and loney
There she took those fine babes' lives - down by the greenwood sidey-o

She wiped the blade against her shoe - all the lee and loney
The more she rubbed, the redder it grew - down by the greenwood sidey-o

She went back to her father's hall - all the lee and loney
Saw two babes a-playing at ball - down by the greenwood sidey-o

'Oh babes oh babes if you were mine' - all the lee and loney
'I'd dress you up in scarlet fine' - down by the greenwood sidey-o

'Oh Mother Oh Mother if we were yours' - all the lee and loney
'Scarlet was our own hearts' blood' - down by the greenwood sidey-o

'Oh babes Oh babes it's Heaven for you' - all the lee and loney
'Oh Mother Oh Mother it's Hell for you' - down by the greenwood sidey-o