Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Was reading thru Shufen's recent entry about JC life... think I really have to agree that JC life is terrible!! Tons of tutorials that will never be completed, tests after tests and loads, I mean LOADS of mugging to do, sandwiched between other activities such as intensive physical activities and CCAS...

Have to say that JC life is really a whole world of difference from secondary school life... I can still vaguely remember the fun that I had during Cat High days. As we had to attend lectures and tutorials with other classes for humanities, it resulted in me going to Cheng Jong's class (4/7) for history and Tzyy Yih's class (4/1) for social studies and geography class... still remember going to CJ's class and watching a whole lot of people swear in the most colourful languages and fights going on that test for skills such as agility, versitility and creativity. Tzyy Yih's class was much more civilised... budden our tutor was really bias against the people from my class just because we did not take triple science... so would always pick on us... we never got praised for anything, instead I think I was always being scolded for talking to Tzyy Yih all the time...

Royston and I were always together... and we would spend most of the free time chatting away... would discuss anything under the sun, such as who's geography teacher should be the subject head, what exciting programmes were showing on TV and stuff. PE at that time was really tough, think tougher than NJ's PE, but at the same time it was fun too... cause we would try ways to slack during PE... like when it was time for soccer, we would try our best to duct the ball, or laugh whilst looking at people play... always enjoyed doing the aerobics during block PE... so fun!! Royston would always think I am mad... cause I was always so enthu during ACES Day...

Oh yah.. loved the cai fan in the school!! Really very tasty!! Recalled putting a lot of chilli on my cai fan... very guo yin to put alot... had this routine.. would buy my cai fan (think its sze chuan cai, chicken in dark soy sauce and another dish) and then get a packet of green tea... den would eat till I get really hot and sweat alot, den I would go to the snacks stall and get a packet of Wang Wang... it was like the miracle cure to the spice... eating that always helps to cool me down... really enjoyed my lunch breaks then...

Band was really really fun compared to now... cause I had a pretty high post, I would sorta abuse my position and skip drill sessions... think its pretty bad of me to do so now... but band drill sessions, esp under my seniors, were really not easy... a lot of pumpings to do!! Esp when I was in the exco.. means having to do double the pumpings (at least better than the 3 heads, who had to do triple the pumpings)... meaning I had to pump like at least a hundred times and stuff... but havin a post was great too... meant that I had the ability to pump people too... and my punishments were really not too lax too.... hahah... think I was really a slacker throughout my secondary school life... but really enjoyed it (my secondary school life lah... not the ability to slack!!)

Actually I feel that NJ life is really pretty good already... most people think its bad cause they hadn't seen other college life... I was from AJC... and I hated every single day of being in AJC... I was pretty unfortunate... being put in this class that were really hostile towards me... they would never include me in my activities... still remember this girl that would always say really mean stuff about me and classmates that would pretend to be nice and talk bad abt me behind my back... as a result I began to drift away from them... free periods were spent alone in my tutorial class and during lunch breaks, I would almost be certain to eat by myself, if not for occasions where I could sit with my cat high frens... it was really that bad... I could just keep quiet for the whole day and no one would care... no one would want to do projects with me and the little conversations me and my classmates had were really limited to 'wad lesson is after this?' or 'any work to hand up'? Absolutely no one wanted to sit with me during lectures, so I was pretty much alone during lectures too... I was basically invisible to them...

It may have seemed pretty impossible to believe that I would have such a life, but its true... people always commented why I would be walking alone everytime they see me.. and I was to embarrassed to say that I was being outcasted... so always had to think of excuses why I was alone... anyway, I really treasure my time spent in NJC as unlike the people in AJC, NJCians are really so warm and helpful... and I am really touched at times by the class for being so nice to me... sometimes when I think about the troubles I face in life, all these small actions are the ones that will brighten me up... for I noe that there are people out there who sincerely care...

Thus I am always willing to lend out a helpin hand to people who face a lot of problems... cause I was previously liddat as well... think that I never really had a good childhood... was always taunted by my primary school teacher who would beat me up every single day and call me crude nicknames, often taken advantaged of in my secondary school life and being outcasted in my JC... but I really seldom dispaired... as I feel that without hardships, I will not be able to treasure the luxuries that I would be having, for example like now... I really appreciate my class and if anyone has any problems, I would really want to help if its within my capabilities... hope that I can at least make a difference by helping...

Does it sound very cliche? Hahah... but I am really very sincere about that hor!! Really... I will try to help as much as I can!!