Wednesday, June 09, 2004

Yesterday was absolutely horrendous!! Got scolded by most of them... Royston thinks I shld stand up for myself since I din do anything wrong... but I wun one lah... cause too hum already... summore yesterday wore really uncomfortable clothes... so the whole day I was like adjusting my shirt and pants... purely cause it was really uncomfortable... so Shufen, DUN get me wrong hor!!

Okie... back to today... Soo Chin came to school so early!! Actually she said she was coming to school at 9am (subconsciously)... den she reached before 8.30!! So enthu lor... think cause she can see 12... hahah!! No lah... just kidding lah... 15 better rite??

Anyway, was really ill prepared for the QnA session... hahah... cause got ps-ed twice mah... so no choice had to ask on the second week lor... budden really got not much to ask... SC very enthu... ping ming do... unlike me... 5 minutes before the meeting den start doing some MCQs...anyway, cause it was really raining heavily so had to go over to the tables outside the library to ask qns... at first still felt pretty awkward... din really talk much... budden after we have all warmed up den we started chatting quite a lot... in fact more than asking qns lor... summore found similarities between SC and 12... both like rabbits lor...

Anyway, do I look like I am very troubled and that I have a lot of problems in my life? Cause Mr Gwee kept on saying that I have very low self confidence and that I shld be more confident if not it wun be good for me when I get into society in future... and he kept on asking if I have a lot of personal problems... and insist that I consult him if I really do have problems... well maybe the low confidence part is true... but no substance how to be confident?? Anyway, problems... nothin much lah... think I can handle it myself... think maybe Miss Lim might have told him... but do I really looked very troubled? Cause Mr Gwee said he could observe it from my actions, speech, daily work and stuff... am I really that different from the others?? He also nv ask SC whether she got probs or not... could it be I have probs and I dunno I have the probs??? Or that everyone can tell that I have problems and I dun think I have problems because I am supressing my problems? Think I too paranoid liao... anyway, wad he said was true lah... I shd be more confident... althou I really think its gonna be a really really hard task... really difficult!!

Anyway, Mr Gwee decided to mark my script and SC's prac script in front of us lor... den just cross cross cross mine and comment all these... so pai seh lor... cause I knew I did very badly... cause fell asleep whilst studying that time... really very embarrassing... and was pretty demoralised... but nonetheless found the crapping part pretty alright (slightly < enjoyable)... talked abt some interesting stuff... think SC liked it also.. cause she likes to chat with jian tan people... and SC finally had her first entry on her autograph book... bet she shd be pretty happy... cause at least one person wrote there already...

After that went to have lunch with SC and her junior, Jane... poor SC, her food got eaten by birds... so she had to eat sandwich instead... anyway Jane was really funny lor... kept on guessing stuff.. but too bad all wrong!! Except the photo part where she got it!! Hahah... think SC got a pretty interesting junior...

Later went over to the stone table to study alone... cause the CO ppl had CO, den WK got BBQ... so poor me had to sit alone at the stone table for like 3 hrs... summore so tired lor... almost fell asleep on the bench... towards the evening there were a lot a lot of insects circling around me... at least got 20 somethin lor... I felt like some rubbish dump... luckily had my ear phones on... if not I would have gone somewhere else... after that did something embarrassing... SC and CJ shld noe... so embarrassing... bet that person sure thinks I sort sort one... anyway, realised I got backstabbed... so bad lor... how can the person be liddat... dun wan to tell me straight up... really dunno wad to say lor...

Dunno wad's wrong with me recently... very easily irritated... just now had dinner with Cheng Jong at Long John Silvers.... the service so bad lor... waited 20 mins for my food to arrive... summore still must remind the staff lor... at first I still quite nice... asked pretty politely for my food... after that still haven come... so got quite pissed... so I began staring at the staff... since I was only sitting beside the counter... den I kept on making the "jik" sound... and kept on saying "Wo bu yao chi le" pretty loudly... althou I dun think the staff can understand chinese... den when the staff finally got me my food, I was so pissed lor... I just looked at the other direction lor... den stretched out my arm to take the food... refused to look at the staff... later still very angry... so I started writing my complain letter whilst eating... wanted to email LJS abt the bad service attitude one... but surfed the net for 1 hour liao still cannot find the email address... so luckily for them... cause my complain letter so well written lor... even CJ thot it was good...

Think my mum a bit cranky now... cause she read the article (inclusive of 3 pictures of the culprits) about the 3 army officers causing the death of some recruit by suffocation... den she very angry... keep on commenting that they got pig brain... den she said "pig head got pig brain", and proceeded to draw on the 3 pictures... made them look like pigs... summore she said want to paste the pictures in the lift.... dunno wad my mum thinking... true lah, the offenders deserved to be punished... but my mum dun have to stick their pictures in the lift rite? Hahah!!