Thursday, November 04, 2004

Wah... so tired now lor... just managed to catch some sleep (for abt 1 hr)... cause really too tired liao... but now feeling worse... cause now even more tired... but think the feeling of tiredness will subside after a while... feel pretty withdrawn actually... dun feel like talking at all... not really listening to wad my sis is saying too... just feel irritated at absolutely every single thing... haiz... really dun like the feeling of waking up and facing reality... so sad... GP was a horrible paper... really had chosen a very bad question that din really fit my style... wad was I thinking at that point in time?? Why on earth did I pick qn 9?? Haiz... wrote such a silly essay that only managed to show how juvenile I was... really very sad... cause normally I wun write liddat one... den flop when I come to A levels... haiz... Compre was no better... no time to complete... think I spent too much time day dreaming... haiz.. think I better dun think about it already lah... the more I think the worse I feel... really scared I cannot go university now... if cannot get in then how? Maybe den I will just start working den save money go overseas or something... since "FM scholarship" sure not enuff for me one... or perhaps I should go around begging ppl to sponser my studies... think I really thinking too much lah... dun bother abt me, I am just indulging myself in self-pity...